07/19/11
Today started out fairly eventful, which I didn’t expect because yesterday I quit my job at Thompson Drug Pharmacy. I didn’t like the fact I gave that up but I had to if I were going to focus on some of my own goals like crucially preparing for the next ASVAB test. I did this because I want this more than anything and if I dont pass this time, I have to wait a whole year before I’m able to take it again. I’m sure if you know me you’ve heard me talk about plans with the military and it may begin to sound old but thats all I can do until I can actually take the test in August :P. I hope to God I pass this time, I want this more than absolutely anything. So many people are counting on me, including my dad. The day I started Thompson Drug, I felt like that was the first time my dad was really proud of me. But the day I quit I felt like my heart sunk and became depressed because I was afraid my dad wouldn’t think of me the same. Today I almost didnt know what to do with myself being home and jobless, cabin fever sat in with me quick. I think as you get older you lose interest in staying home and spending time around it because thats all you’ve known growing up. So you get rid of of all your toys and just keep an area of simplicity. Because your attention is drawn outside those four walls, yearning for structure, purpose, and a great future. I know if I were to gain entrance into the military I would have everyone of those and have something myself and others can be proud of. My plans remain but for now I need to get my older job back so I can stay sane and not have to worry about becoming broke. Im also happy to say that I found someone who can help keep me sane haha. But im getting to bed. This is my post for today, peace.
